Lost

Today I feel lost. I have no idea why. Maybe it's because I was on duty for 24 hours and I just woke up from my nap. I think that room did something to me. People always ask why I pay others to do my duty but I think it's pretty obvious after last night...IT MAKES ME CRAZY. And now I'm all sad. I think I am actually going to work to get away from my boredom. Holy sheet mang, what am I saying? There is no place I hate more than work. Really. I want it to go away so bad and I can't do anything. I can't even make it better there because the assholes that work at battalion call me every five minutes to micromanage. I'm about to ask them if they want my job because it's getting ridiculous. I can't even make a decision without them knowing because if they don't know they get all pissy and cranky and I really think they just want my job. Well fine! Take it, I'm giving it up. As of right now my job is up for grabs, and anyone that wants it can have it. I'm going to start going to work and just not doing anything (not that I did anything before) and when they call I'm going to answer every question with "I dont know", even if I do. Then they'll fire me and I can get an easier job...oohhh except the army doesn't work like that and my life would be a living hell...so i'm now forced...FORCED...to do a good job to avoid getting stuck with a bad eval and a worse job. It's a vicious cycle and I'm in the middle of it and I want out.
Whew, sorry...that was a good vent session. Now I have to go get dressed and go to work with a smile on my face and a super duper "Can-Do" attitude...YAYYYYYY!!!!!! :)