Less Than Three
I've determined what it is to be in love. Sort of. Let me explain what I mean. Many blogs back, in fact I believe it was my second blog ever, I wrote about never finding love and never being in love and living the rest of my life as a bachelorette. These were all things I worried about and have continued to worry about up until about 72 hours ago.
I thought back on all my old relationships where I told my partner that I loved them. I don't think I actually was in love with any of them at all. I probably loved them, but not the same. I wondered if I'd ever have the "burning passions" of love and would I know it if I had it? I thought I'd never fall head over heels like in the movies because that was just too much for me to believe in. It seemed so corny and fake. But actually, it's really like that. Corny, head over heels love.
This is how I know.
For the first time, I was actually nervous and scared to say 'I love you'. This is new for me but I took it as a good sign. I finally got it out then cried about two minutes after. Not because I was upset or scared, but because I was so overwhelmed with emotion that it came out in tears. I teared up a few more times that day. It's like my heart is so happy that it just wants to burst. I've never felt so comfortable, safe, happy and nervous all at the same time. All I want is to keep making * smile...and somehow, I know that * is feeling all of these things too. I only hope that I can give * the hapiness and peace that * gives me...
<3
I've substituted the names and personal pronouns with the asterik for obvious reasons...
I thought back on all my old relationships where I told my partner that I loved them. I don't think I actually was in love with any of them at all. I probably loved them, but not the same. I wondered if I'd ever have the "burning passions" of love and would I know it if I had it? I thought I'd never fall head over heels like in the movies because that was just too much for me to believe in. It seemed so corny and fake. But actually, it's really like that. Corny, head over heels love.
This is how I know.
For the first time, I was actually nervous and scared to say 'I love you'. This is new for me but I took it as a good sign. I finally got it out then cried about two minutes after. Not because I was upset or scared, but because I was so overwhelmed with emotion that it came out in tears. I teared up a few more times that day. It's like my heart is so happy that it just wants to burst. I've never felt so comfortable, safe, happy and nervous all at the same time. All I want is to keep making * smile...and somehow, I know that * is feeling all of these things too. I only hope that I can give * the hapiness and peace that * gives me...
<3
I've substituted the names and personal pronouns with the asterik for obvious reasons...
posted by Lyss at 7:55 PM
2 Comments:
All too often we think we love people when really we *heart* them very much. You know it's the infamous, ever-elusive "True Love" when it makes you dizzy, nervous, even nauseous. The fact that you cried right after you said it... perfect. I almost feel like congratulations are in order... for what you've found is truly special. Hold onto it, okay? :-) Be well...
All too often we think we love people when really we *heart* them very much. You know it's the infamous, ever-elusive "True Love" when it makes you dizzy, nervous, even nauseous. The fact that you cried right after you said it... perfect. I almost feel like congratulations are in order... for what you've found is truly special. Hold onto it, okay? :-) Be well...
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