Yup
Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday dear Alyssa (and Sarah) happy birthday to me!!!
I'm 24 today. Last night I had a surprise birthday party thrown for me. It was my first ever surprise party and I was really excited about it. I even had a cake. So great. Thanks to Sheli for putting that one on. It was much appreciated.
I'm not going to get into my antics over the weekend. Lets just leave it at this...I got really really really drunk Saturday and I guess I wasn't the most fun person to be around for some people. Luckily all my other friends thought it was fine...including blue crush which is a funny story in and of itself. But regardless of whether or not I was drunk I'm sure that Sheli would have been upset with me for treating her weird that night. Here's why:
Um, I can't just miraculously be friends with someone that I broke up with less than a month ago. It's weird and it takes time. I know how she feels because I've read her blog. It seems odd to me that she can come over and act like we're really great friends when I know that inside she must be really upset. And then she got mad at me for acting weird. I'm not going to laugh and act like I'm totally ok with us the way we are when I'm still getting used to it. So I refuse to try to make her feel more comfortable with the situation when I'm not comfortable with it. I'm sorry if this seems harsh but it's how I feel. I tried to explain this and I hope it came out alright. I just need to move on and not worry about being insensitive or weird or whatever. Does this make sense to anyone?
But, besides that...my party was the shizzy, I'm leaving work early today and I'm going out for dinner tonight...booyah! :) You love that word, I know...
I'm 24 today. Last night I had a surprise birthday party thrown for me. It was my first ever surprise party and I was really excited about it. I even had a cake. So great. Thanks to Sheli for putting that one on. It was much appreciated.
I'm not going to get into my antics over the weekend. Lets just leave it at this...I got really really really drunk Saturday and I guess I wasn't the most fun person to be around for some people. Luckily all my other friends thought it was fine...including blue crush which is a funny story in and of itself. But regardless of whether or not I was drunk I'm sure that Sheli would have been upset with me for treating her weird that night. Here's why:
Um, I can't just miraculously be friends with someone that I broke up with less than a month ago. It's weird and it takes time. I know how she feels because I've read her blog. It seems odd to me that she can come over and act like we're really great friends when I know that inside she must be really upset. And then she got mad at me for acting weird. I'm not going to laugh and act like I'm totally ok with us the way we are when I'm still getting used to it. So I refuse to try to make her feel more comfortable with the situation when I'm not comfortable with it. I'm sorry if this seems harsh but it's how I feel. I tried to explain this and I hope it came out alright. I just need to move on and not worry about being insensitive or weird or whatever. Does this make sense to anyone?
But, besides that...my party was the shizzy, I'm leaving work early today and I'm going out for dinner tonight...booyah! :) You love that word, I know...
posted by Lyss at 1:27 PM
2 Comments:
Thanks for the shout out dude! I was sick for our birthday.. yuck, but I managed to enjoy it. When you come home in April, we'll have to go out and have a belated celebration!
As for your explaination, it made sense to me. It's better for you to be honest and upfront with your feelings, rather than hiding them and putting on an act. Putting on acts helps no one and in the end causes more hurt. Keep your head up kid. It'll get easier.
I'm off to do some shopping... Hanukkah starts tonight!!! LATER!
Also.. i got a sweeeeeet webcam. Let me know when you're able to get back online at home... and we can chat!
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